The story of Second Life

Back in 2018, I felt stuck in my life. I was exhausted, emotionally overloaded, and my mind was completely messed up. All that was left was darkness. The emotional impact of losing my brother, financial worries and concerns about my own health became a heavy burden. At the same time, the world kept turning, and I had to continue taking my responsibilities. There was no time to sit back and reflect, no time to understand what was going on. That burden got too heavy.

" All that was left was darkness "

When you’re going through a tough time, it’s important to give yourself some space—to think, to rest and to learn. I did that, but I didn’t want to disappoint others. Over time, I ended up giving myself space, but only by taking away what was important to me. What remained was that I was living only for others.

Life no longer held any meaning for me and I considered ending my life. I questioned myself if life was really meant to be like that but I couldn't believe that to be true.

" I considered ending my life "

Slowly, I began to think about how life could be meant differently. An alternative life started to develop in my imagination, a life where I took myself seriously and listened to my thoughts and feelings. A life in which I would be kind and honest with myself, and where I wouldn’t hide from others any longer. I didn’t want to be imprisoned within myself anymore. One of the main things I had hidden for a long time was my musical dream. Since my youth, I have dreamed of inspiring people with my music, music that reflects my personal experiences. And I knew that this was part of my alternative life too.

Second Life is about the change during this difficult moment. I knew I had to make a decision: to quit or to live more authentically. I had nothing left to lose, and because of that, I embraced the change.

" Burn-out and depression are a clear sign:

'Stop, you can’t go any further' "

As I write this blog, I’m glad to say that I can look back on this hard time in my life. Depression and burnout may make it feel like the end is near when you're in the midst of it. But it is a clear sign from both the body and mind saying: 'Stop, you can’t go any further.' Although I still face difficult times and personal struggles, I can say that the direction of my life has changed. If this challenging period hadn’t been a part of my life, I wouldn’t have the strength to keep going and I wouldn’t be sharing my music with the world. After all, I’m very great full for how my life has changed since then.

" Afterall, I’m very great full for how my life has changed since then.  "